The choice to self-publish didn't come easily to me. In all honesty, I agonised over my decisions for months. For a long time, I assumed I would query, get an agent, then be traditionally published.
But I weighed the other option too: self-publishing. That choice always scared me, overwhelmed me, but it was always there in the back of my mind.
Traditional publishing was always my dream, I won't lie. I wanted the glitz and glam that came with having an agent and a publisher. I even considered submitting to an Indie publishing house because I thought I'd have the same feeling there.
And yet, last year (2019 - wow, I can't believe I just wrote last year), after coming up with a small list of agents to query and feeling inadequate (because who was ever going to publish my book?), I took a breath, reevaluated, and realised that I could do it - I could self-publish if I really wanted to. And I can tell you now, when I realised that I could then I really focused on that goal.
There's more to why I chose self-publishing over traditional. One more being that I didn't want someone to tear my book apart and remake it a way that they believed would be sellable. Traditional publishing is full of gate-keepers and stuffy nosed people who believe they know best. And yes, they probably do. That's just the way of the industry.
But art is subjective, and writing is an art. I feared that while one group of people thought my book might not 'sell' the traditional way, readers might see the potential anyway, might still want to read it.
So, with fear and hope, I chose to self-publish. I started doing research and watching videos and following people who were/had self-published. I started saving and planning. I booked my cover designer, I talked to an editor, I've been looking at different marketing strategies and learning how to do a lot of things on my own.
And I'm excited. I am so excited that I've been able to do pick and choose what I think works for me and my brand. I don't have to wait, either. I can do everything in my own time, and because of that, I'm grateful and happy.
I can't wait to share more with you all about the process! Until next time!